Tuesday, December 14, 2010

"John Doe"



I toiled with the thought of you,the presence of who 
Then just in time to figure you out,you leave
You leave behind remnants of other emotions
Yet I still don't know you name.
You come and go as you please
Locking the door behind you as you leave
Who gave you the key?
I thought I could dismiss the obviousness of your presence,but you mask it with seeds
It can be angry,jealous ,lonely ,insecure and doubtful yet none of them is you
Your style is masked with a greater intent
Clothed in demise you make your way in.
I prayed you gone and had others do the same ,you left for a moment
I left a window open and in the front door you came
I called all the names I could, but you answered to none
So I walked and talked to God asking Him what should be done
You can beat a drum and get all the sounds it's suppose to make
But when you blow it,or stroke it,an unintended silence is all it creates
The wrong approach yields no response
You carried deceit,meant to haunt
So You were all along being called by other names
No wonder you returned as you wish doing the same damage as the last time you came
Unrecognizable by name only presence
I prayed and I prayed for your identity to be made known,the source of your essence
so I could knock you down in all of your shadow stature
The fall of you in 3-D.... captured
Discontent, there you go!
I know what you do,what you take away first
You stop what's started
your job is to unravel almost complete works
To hide 2 inches from the finish line
To whisper with sounds of familiarity only to destroy in a straight line
You came unnoticed because your name was hidden
Hidden by the loud sounds of what you SHOULD be, but that used to confuse me
Had I called you by your name before, I could have fought harder
But this time I understand and will beat you farther
I snatch your keys and destroyed your entry way,no longer are you welcome to make a home in my every day
Defeated is your new name because I lined you up with the name of my savior
And with His will at hand ,and knowing who I am YOU cannot stand
I watched long enough as you walked in and out.
Confused as to what you were about.
I thought it was me,but it's you.
Our relationship is crushed you are through.
I line up Love,Joy peace,patience ,goodness,kindness ,gentleness and self control on my doors and windows panes
SO that your next attempt to enter my world will be in vain
Consider this your eviction notice,you've been warned ,take you bags,takes the keys
You don't live here ANY more.
You're not welcome like nobody with an invite
You have not mail here,all things stamped and returned goodnight
You have been vanquished from the presence of me,so I'm not the inner me enemy.
Thank God I found you,my Savior surrounds you,swallows you up and straightens up
I stand firm and can fight when you try and return.



-Keoka

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Opurtune appt or just a Lesson...?

Soooooo the most random things happen to me...
So...I'm VERY dismissive with men...lol ....Like even if Im attracted to you,I'll totally be like....T-T-Y-L..in your face,this coming from somone who doesnt want to be single forever.
Ok so on my usual Starbukcs run a man tries to talk to me..Nice looking,smooth skin...whatever.He's being very inquisitive ..which btw in NYC is sometimes very stalker ish..lol I let him know he was asking A Lot of questions.I told  him my name was KO KO and i had a bf..(none is true).He said he was Nigerian and was in an R&B group.I said ok :: side eye:: and continued on to order my Caramel Brule latte He asks for my number.I said NO..with a smile.We made a lil small talk,my friend comes in and..HE disappears..SO i google his group when I got back tot he office.
UM....can we say Super star?Dudes a millionaire he and his twin brother have a successful singing group.Platinum ,BET Award winning..and any other accolade you could think of  to rub my face in humble pie,lol.
I kicked myself for awhile because either way I was dishonest and very stand offish(of which my co worker says may be an indwelling issue since there was a similar subject on the most recent Oprah).But anyway.
I turned into the stalker monster and looked up all of the albums ,pretty cool group.Too bad he was so busy getting my info that he didn't tell me his name.So I have no idea which twin it was.He had on a  hat so it could be either one.lol.MY LIFE.All of this after my mentor(who's Nigerian as well) clearly told me(in his voice like God way)..stop being so picky,so off set.
So ladies...take it from me,whether an international R&B singer or the garbage man....dont be so hard ,so guarded,not every man is that one man that you have to shoo away.Be safe but not snobby.Be wise.

I could have just been meant to encourage him,not marry him...lol

Prayer :
"God....lol (who says Lol in prayer?) 
From now on I know better,I knew better last time,but this time I know BETTER.So whether it be him or someone else,I must learn to be honest and just..Let not another opportunity pass by,millionaire or pauper.Amen"

Learn from Me..."Ko Ko"
SMH!

Friday, November 12, 2010

Sigh!

I need to relax....where do you go to just relax?Feel the air against your skin,no ones words violating your space...Just you and God and all he's created?I'm not asking for an invite..just when you're done,let me go there too....
hmm
Sigh...
I hope you week was blessed!
Have a wonderful weekend!

Keoka

Friday, October 29, 2010

Day.....18 or something...

I didn't have Starbucks I had regular coffee.Society makes you handicap..I utterly detest making coffee myself...Like...who does this  but Moms and teachers?I like my coffee from a  menu and made with my name on the cup...Now i have to do it myself??BUDGET....BUDGET!

Are you lauging at me???
lol
STOP IT! LOL
Have a wonder-FULL weekend!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Day 3...

Day 1-....YUM
Day 2- Dumm
Day 3-.........ummmmmmmmmmm
The walk was great!
I discovered a forever 21 on 46th!I didn't go in of course!I also noticed that tourists travel in droves and have no idea that this day called TODAY ,they are NOT the only people on earth.Tourists make me feel like there has been a  sudden increase in world population.Living in one of the biggest cities I don't see how over crowding still ANNOYS my soul.
Yes!
I'm pissed metro card prices are rising!Are you frickin' kidding me!I am going to be paying EXTRA of my hard earned moolah to rub  butts with a big hipped man?!!!!???
Ugh!
Where are the protests??I'm there.. front line....yelling: "NO ! NO!...."(fill in the blank)..lol
Back to my trip..here are a few pics.
See the nice GPS on my phone?????How cool?!Apparently,I burned only 576 calories,walked nearly 4 miles(its stopped at 92nd street for some reason..I think because it felt me stop in Starbucks to pee....and then my throat got dry..so I got hot apple Juice...ugh ok Apple Cider)...so it didn't count the steps after...
But it said..I burned 5 Bananas...lol ;-)


EL Fin.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Day2 is...

Day 2 is the shadow of DAY 1...and there are probably 2 things you can say about it.
1-I've never seen it before
2-..DO over :-)
lol.....
I'm walking home today ...and according to Google maps it will take me....1 hour 47 minutes..
I will keep you posted. :-)
I will TRY!....TRY! TRY!....NOT to pick up Starbucks...:-)
This is one of those things that I am wildly curious about like....Climbing Mt Kilimanjaro and Antarctica...1 outta 3 ain't bad :-)

CHANGE....

Why is change so hard?
Webster or WiKtionary says change is :
the process of becoming different...the synonym is transformation.
Whoa buddy....I knew that.
My rendition: Change is like those stockings you abhor wearing but it looks oh so proper according to "Mommy southern tradition".And those bad boys get to rolling like water down a wall...and you can't just pull them up from the middle in hopes that they stay up BUT  (if you were taught correctly)..you have to start from the bottom and pull inch by inch,til you progress and the excess is used and now holds you in place.
In case you rolled your eyes...I was trying to say, real change means ADJUSTMENT.I need to adjust certain things.

Well at least I thought it was a great analogy...lol smile with me :-).
So on my journey I am now at DAY 2...Day 1 Would've been last week Friday,but in excuse and all of ex-procrastinator galour,I decided the first day of the work week is better.
So what is my change you may ask? Mmmkay...where do I begin?Well it's mostly the OUTER me..Mh yea I'm a lil UN-pleased.
I feel like I've hit 26 and have not taken full control of anything..not that I need to have control of life ..ultimately that can't happen but with the measly human power given me over this living body :-) grand as it is.I must take care of it.I don't want to wait 'til it's doctor's orders and I'm standing in line in Mexico for cheap meds, since America's health care is...no comment.
The outer me affects the inner me and I can't be walking around unhealthy.
My change is one day at a time.
Deal with the rants and the raves.
You know when you decide to change one thing ..a million other things begin to need a fixin' too.Like a woman without a grocery list in the Supermarket...I have more bags than I can carry.God help me...thank you :-)
I love Him.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

pssssssssssssssssssssssssssssst

Guess what??????????
Im on Etsy NOOOOW!!!



Monday, October 11, 2010

Sunny Side/Elmhurst Experience..

WONDERfull!!!
lol
Fair-$50
Earring supplies :I'd have to kill you if I told you
Brownies/Indo Food/Thai Food:$50

Lugging a table and Ikea bag with Ermy from Elmhurst to SunnySide Queens using Public Transportation,getting lost,having lil kids steal my candies instead of buying earrings,eating my next door neighbors at the Fairs Brownies,Non wind-prood display flying down 15+ times....all to have sold 1 pair to a senior citizen ,and slumber party with Lulu Stellar= PRICELESS!!!let's do it again!!!!!!!!
:-)


God is good....life is Venti!
:-)

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Monday, September 27, 2010

Autumn is here....

What does Fall bring????


Colored leaves......
Beautiful clothes.....
Pumpkin Spice Lattes.....
oh and ........EARRINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Who doesn't love animal prints huh??????
 
 
...Or hand picked leaves???
 











 I know i do!!!!:-)

Coming soon to WIX.COM/KEADORN/IADORN...put ur pre-orders in :-)!!!!!!!

Friday, September 17, 2010

Before I go on.....Thank you SUMMER

Phew...I almost forgot how AWESOME this summer has been!!!!!!!!!!
From my cousins Graduation,Meeting my God Daughter for the first time,Youth Conference in Florida,Tennessee and finally and CRUISE!!!.God did more with my less each one was a slow insecure nod financially...BUT I made it and I thank Him.....
Pics in Review...ENJOY!
Thank you for making my summer wonderful!
Nigel's Graduation
Virginia!
 
ROAD TRIP!!
NASHVILLE FAIR
 
PORT ST.LUCIE

COZUMEL ,MEXICO-Carnival Cruise.
SUMMER YOU WERE FUN.....::BLOWS A KISS::
WELCOME AUTUMN :-)

Friends...the things they say....why I love them..my responses to them..QUOTES

Ermy: In reference to SLushy Snow  "i know open up ur mouth put some syrup on ur tongue there u go~ no Starbucks  Starbucks free Starbucks from heaven"


Moody :"Blind LEADING THE Blind HUH?SO WE GOT LazaRUFF as a seeing eye dog? "

"Wheat bagels taste like folded paper towels" Me


"Jacuzzi =big bath tub to me...and grown ppl in a bath tub is NOT appealing to me...lol that's just me...esp if we're not married...imma need NOT to be able to feel ur legs"


"always BE-YOU-tiful"-Uze


in reference to child birth..."God while you're casting lots,can I NOT get the short end of the stick?' -Ceres
More to come...... 

Friday, August 27, 2010

Heart

Dear Heart,
                The things you feel confuse me
Dear God,

        ....unravel the mess that it is tangled up like christmas tree lights in me,You're the only one I have truly fallin in love with
Don't know the reasons for infatuation,lending my emotions to those pleasantly waiting
Yet so unattached I move like a bag on a conveyor belt
How does this work?Its been the same seems like all of my life,the tracks of my tears wondering if I shall be a wife
Feeling pleasantly peasant-ly dibbling and dabbling with the thought of the worth of me...
The worth of me..thinking about the outer me so they can see the inner me..still persuaded by the hymns of beauty from the lips of the unworthy.
God I scream from the top of my lungs.....what's the deal with me???
I sit and my mind goes in and out with the thoughts of him..."Him" being whomever has won the gaze of my eye...
With a false sense of friendship..I'm STILL swooned by looks and STILL misunderstand ..God please help me...
Dear heart,

      ...you're deceitful...you hold memories of emotions passed...you divide the truth
You tell the mind what to look for...
    Dear heart,
            you are a mighty warrior
You pick your battles BUT go in willing to lose 
Blinded by desire you still choose
Oh this heart of mine,with a shell like a nut ,you long to be opened,free from assumptions
Yet you go ahead of me..clogging this head on me..

Fogging the the light embedded in me..
You make me act a fool and reveal feelings..false feelings..YOU are filled with scrambled up waves,misconceptions and false ideas
I blame me...I fill you with the world and have not guarded you,so now you control me....
Heart You're deceitful above all things,but I think I taught you the false song you sing.
Ke

Thursday, July 15, 2010

BECAUSE

Have you ever had a day where your mind and heart is just full of questions?I read a random fact that said the average 4 yr old asks 400 questions a DAY!A DAY????..whoa now...there aren't even 400 WORDS in an average 4yr old's vocabulary.
Well anyway...I was asking God a series of questions,rhetorical in structure ,however I would have very much so appreciated an answer ,when He was ready of course.Can't rush God ,it's impossible ,your haste makes you move without direction.I'm not trying that anymore,it doesn't taste good and from the outside looking in the results are never good.
So back to the questions...you know how it goes.."God what do you want me to do?,Where should I be?Is this right?Are you sure?God why me.......?"

I happen to spray paint random things...now that I have this new found passion for jewelry..so...yea...I was looking for a few pieces of this necklace I was making and stuck to a nut (nuts and bolts nut)..I see a small piece of newspaper...and it says "BECAUSE" simple and perfectly torn.
I laugh.....because instantly I am brought back to my questions.
Have you ever asked you parents or a guardian :"Why? Why" ..But Why?" and they go ,face expressionless,(if it's a black woman) neck twist "Because!"..or "Because I said so"
So I was instantly in awe...I don't believe in coincidences and out of a huge newspaper  why was this the main piece?
Interesting huh?Shut me up quickly!

But then I  got more curious and dug around into my little 3" ACE hardware store nuts and bolts box and found more.....
Now the people that KNOW me may say.."Ke ...are you serious?Its not that deep".....but I'd  rather hold onto a promise that no one understands but me...because I figure if God wants to whisper something  in my ear..just me..Why not listen?From the quiet prayers of my heart....HE heard even me and my mumbo jumbo.
<3
Ke

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

i.Adorn is doing things now! woo hoo!!!

wix.com/keadorn/iadorn


So I  thought,I'd just be making things for me here and there no biggie.Ha!!!!God has other plans for the work of my hands,from alteast 2 customers a week and even a special wedding request!Jesus has taken the wheel,and im in the passenger seat!
i.Adorn is bigger then me.

Join me this weekend for a Tag Sale /Health fair in Harlem
See the Flyer below  :
Hope to see you there!!!!!!!
Thx for your support!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Dear Diary,


“My work is like a diary. To understand it, you have to see how it mirrors life.”
Pablo Picasso-

Little girls LOVE diaries.They made you feel like you have important things to say,and if you had that little cheap lock, it made you feel like no one in the whole wide world could ever get in(especially if you hid the key in your pillow case).
They made you feel like you were growing up because NO one knew about the crushes except your closest girl buddy and page 2 out of 15,rant and raved about how he smiled,how he hit you and ran,how his eyelashes were long and how he specially asked to borrow your crayon.Diaries are were our ways of letting thoughts hit paper with out running away.

I personally have had at least 7.Every one different,and with each age and experience,a bit more "interesting".EVERY ONE had boys in them,"He's stupid","He's cute","Why is he with her?"...etc.
My sister told me how she recently found her old diary and how she had cursed all of us out in it.LOL..I've been there.awww
When we get "older" diaries now become "Journals" ..they get less cute and more solid colored ,no characters and no more fake metal locks,maybe a nice string to keep it closed,and some couture news cut outs in the border that make you feel uber cool and crafty. :-).
It's where your most personal thoughts,emotions,prayers concerns,cries for help go.Think about how much writing affects the world,it's intimate,something so sad and scary as a suicide letter holds more emotion than sometimes a spoken paragraph can.Scary?Sometimes misinterpreted upon reading and too shocking to say aloud,writing creates a world where your brain draws pictures with your pen/pencil and then creates the same or similar affect for those who have the privilege of reading it.I just thought about how full the brain must get and if it had a ways of emptying out,what would,or where would it be.Crafty thing this brain of ours is,dangerous too.


I LOVE to write,I LOVE stories ,short stories,modern day and old school parable like stories with meaning and some that just ,make you Laugh out Loud.My most favorite author is Zora Neale Hurston.I own her collection of short stories.Her writings are so unique,she had a way of capturing the moment and time and bring you there.Plus she writes how her characters spoke,deep southern vernacular with broken words and concoctions that only few can relate to.I LOVE it!

If you're a writer I encourage you to write more.Who cares about titles?If it's what you LOVE you do it!You do it because no talent should go unused and hid in the ground(refer previous post entitled "25" ) .

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Because your ears carry a message ......

In Addition to the rest.....I.Adorn...

Thursday, April 1, 2010

I.ADORN

How do YOU stand out amongst the rest?
























ALL hand made by me....
Keeks

KNOCK KNOCK!..WHOSE THERE?.....

ALLERGIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL

Thursday, March 18, 2010

SOME AFTERNOON.....GIRLIE-NESS!

God, you put lovely things of the earth in a creation  smoothie and out came SCOTTIE REYNOLDS....
LOL
NCAA Villanova collge champ...this boy is OH-mazing...His face amongst other great talents too...lol
By the way I tend to equate my love for sports only by the faces I recognize or stumble upon....(EYE CANDY)..How I stumbled upon this...I have NO clue..lol
I think he's a cutie...His story is quite moving as well.Orphaned at and early age and raised by another family,this young man is an over comer ( yea im trying to cover up the slight shallowness,by giving you the bio stats I so lurk-like looked up)
"God please protect him from the groupies...."
The nerve of me saying a prayer after this...lol
LOL!! AT MY RANDOMNESS.....THIS BOY IS ONLY 22 YRS OLD...
Well thats enough of that!MOVING ON....

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Love!!!!!

Hi Friend,
Just a few things I  think you should know before you embark on this new friendship
If you make me mad I may not speak to you.Make me mad enough,I'll wish you never existed.Hurt me and I'll find a magic wand to erase every good thing you've ever done and the worst will be the only thing I remember.And I'll always remind you of what you've done.
But I Love you tho.

Lol.Imagine someone saying that to you?
Kind of nervy huh?
But we do that all of the time in our actions.
Lately I have been challenged in the "love" area...Not necessarily in that of romantics but, overall.I'm the type of person that doesn't take things at face value,I need core evidence and foundational truth before i can believe it.I need to know that this is the right way.That's one reason why I take my Beliefs in Christ seriously.It doesn't obey the laws of physics(hence our prayers reach Him before we open our mouths).There are no Chemistry formulas that can break down its truths.SO what?How do you believe if it can't be measured?But I will say Christianity requires faith .Not everything is logical.

SO.....getting to the meat of this...I have been struggling with "forgiveness".A ha!
It's one thing to say: "I forgive you,now go on about your business and never show your face again" but another to say :" I forgive you and I love you too...now go on about your business".....lol
Seriously...I thought I had this forgiveness thing in the bag.Forgive so you'll be forgiven....so on and so forth.BUT!....it turns out (through self examination) I forgive on my own terms.I can let it go ,as long as Im not thinking about it..so if I can push this as far a possible to the back of my mind,it keeps it from hurting over and over.NOT SO!....what you try to hide always finds another way out,either in actions or future circumstances.Like...digestion,sooner or later what you eat has got to be released.If it doesn't get out one way,your body will find another and if that way doesn't work,your insides and your whole system is knocked off,and you get sick.Same thing with unforgiveness,you get sick.You;re not well.You;re heart gets hardened and you put so much into this one feeling that all else is affected.

What to do? what to do?
SO I've prayed about this thing.Ask God to help me...and HE has.But I've realized its a process that has a date and time determined by God NOT me...I can't rush recovery.:-/
I have no answers at the moment.Just thoughts and consistent prayer.
"God help me to love like you love.A love like mine isn't a love that you've required.My love holds a grudge,my love secretly has disdain. My love isn't love at all.This is why I NEED you God..."

For no other reason I trust God because life is enough all on its own.I'm convinced and persuaded that God has all the answers and I don't..I know He does.A HA!..Even if He doesn't tell me a single thing.Which is why my trust is in Him.SO if you read this blog and are tired of the rants and raves about Jesus.....I make no apologies.Champions make no apologies for a solid win, hatred makes no apology for the lives lost.SO why should I sigh and be timid about the God who has Loved me and continues to teach me?I wont.I love him and honestly that's the only type of Love I think I've gotten right.

I Corinthians 13
If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. 
If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. 
If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.


   Love never gives up.
   Love cares more for others than for self.
   Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
   Love doesn't strut,
   Doesn't have a swelled head,
   Doesn't force itself on others,
   Isn't always "me first,"
   Doesn't fly off the handle,
   Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
   Doesn't revel when others grovel,
   Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
   Puts up with anything,
   Trusts God always,
   Always looks for the best,
   Never looks back,
   But keeps going to the end.
Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.
When I was an infant at my mother's breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good.
We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!
But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love. 

One my pursuit to Love like I've been Loved by God...join me.
John 15:13
"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends."


Keeks

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

New Passion..I.love..."I.Adorn"

So as some may know I love earrings....My collections is BANANAS(that means Huge yet great..lol).....over  50 pairs....but that's just Dangling- ear chandelier ,not including studs :-).
Any I have a new found passion,of which I will soon be debuting for sale.My company will be called I.Adorn.
 Take  a LOOK..
All handmade by me....







 COMMENT PLEASE! :-)