The inner me enemy-------Say it over again to really understand it
I may be looking at you,looking at me.
You mirror me.
The things I don't like in you I see in me.
You have my face and all the expressions that read your heart
Your eyebrows arch like mine and when you smile terror departs
I love you,I don't love me.
It's in you I see me.
i see you before i see me
i need to look in something clear to see me,but before i can look at me,I see you
You with the words that finish my sentences
you with the inevitable annoyances
you with wanting to always be near me
you with the terrible selfishness
you with always having to have the last word
you who would rather talk than listen
you who calls all of the time
you who is overly affectionate
you who has too much confidence
you who doesn't have enough
you who is afraid
you who wont leave no matter how much i push you away
you who hates everyone with a smile
you who is homeless
you who is lonely
you who is depressed
you who left you for him and never found you again
you who sold you for a laugh and a hi five
you....who is me
you who looks like me
i see you before i see me
because you look like me,i don't love me
oh but then there's HE.
worth a repeat...OH ...BUT ...THEN... THERE'S ..HE
Oh He,who had me in mind before this blue ball was flung into space to circle the sun
He who made me from He to be like Him
why haven't I been looking at HIM to find me?
I thought i was
I mixed the right remedy to cure this,oh im spiritual chef extraordinaire
i mixed gentleness with joy so you could see me smile
i took lil bit of oil and rubbed the inside of my mind
i turned up the heat on the "oven" so i could turn out just fine
i was fixing a dish that would make me APPEAR just right
and I ate all up.
i must've accidentally made Eve's apple,because after that i had a stomach ache and everything that went in needed to come back out...
all of a sudden i saw me for me and not you standing there
but that's a mess.
hold my breathe and my chest so my ME wont stink
so im not all fixed and i STILL see me when i see you and i dont want to be your friend
and i dont love me because you are me and all this time im thinking it's about you but it's me
it's not you it's me.
There is me in you,and if I had not seen it ,i would have remained the same
But by doctors orders ,the best image consultant there ever was
I am like HE..because that's where i came from and when i dont love me ,that means i don't love Him
Well we cant have that can we?
So i need not find him on google maps but look in me.
He has shown me ,me so that now i see,
all of this time i wasn't really not loving me,but not looking at he.So now im looking to Him to see me.
And HE'S perfect and what a privilege to know i was made by HE.
