Heart

Dear Heart,

                The things you feel confuse me

Dear God,

        ....unravel the mess that it is tangled up like christmas tree lights in me,You're the only one I have truly fallin in love with
Don't know the reasons for infatuation,lending my emotions to those pleasantly waiting
Yet so unattached I move like a bag on a conveyor belt
How does this work?Its been the same seems like all of my life,the tracks of my tears wondering if I shall be a wife

Feeling pleasantly peasant-ly dibbling and dabbling with the thought of the worth of me...
The worth of me..thinking about the outer me so they can see the inner me..still persuaded by the hymns of beauty from the lips of the unworthy.

God I scream from the top of my lungs.....what's the deal with me???
I sit and my mind goes in and out with the thoughts of him..."Him" being whomever has won the gaze of my eye...
With a false sense of friendship..I'm STILL swooned by looks and STILL misunderstand ..God please help me...

Dear heart,

      ...you're deceitful...you hold memories of emotions passed...you divide the truth

You tell the mind what to look for...

    Dear heart,

            you are a mighty warrior

You pick your battles BUT go in willing to lose 

Blinded by desire you still choose

Oh this heart of mine,with a shell like a nut ,you long to be opened,free from assumptions

Yet you go ahead of me..clogging this head on me..

Fogging the the light embedded in me..
You make me act a fool and reveal feelings..false feelings..YOU are filled with scrambled up waves,misconceptions and false ideas
I blame me...I fill you with the world and have not guarded you,so now you control me....

Heart You're deceitful above all things,but I think I taught you the false song you sing.
Ke

I.ADORN

How do YOU stand out amongst the rest?

ALL hand made by me....
Keeks

TWENTY-SIX CANDLES

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!!!

I laugh at the notion of feeling special on a day like this and then walking outside of your house and  people who don't know you don't; care..lol...You're smiling,you're "extra" cute but, to a complete stranger you look massively crazy..Birthdays are special especially in a season where people are literally dropping like flies.It's not in the parties,the dinners,the gifts or the layers of makeup.But the plain and simple fact...you're here.I celebrate that.

Every time my Birthday comes around,I think about the decision my mom made at 24.She had a choice and to it's a story we too often hear ,but the fact that the option was there to terminate something before its growth says that the decision not to,reaps many blessings..So that means.....I'm a BLESSING...lol....yay!

Simply put...I'M THANKFUL

 

TODAY I AM...

9497 days

1356 weeks

227,928 hours

13,675,680 minutes

820,540,800 seconds...old....WOO HOO!!!!