I can do better....

Reverting to my last post ...HERE

Have you ever had a month,a year,a DAY where you ask yourself?How in the world did I get here???
It was a series of events that led up to ONE highlighted event that shed light on all of the others.
I consider myself to be financially......safe...lol HA! ...WHATEVER THAT MEANS..lol
However I sometimes spend as if I have a rich alter ego.
I'm coming to realize that no one is picking up the bill..but ME .I am the one paying for all of the expenses and am left to fork over the moolah EACH and every time I spend! duh!

Anyway I said that to say this...
I no longer wish to be "safe" I need to be secure. Aha! Do they mean the same thing ..?no.Safe is cool...(away from harm) i.e. I don't have pookie and them looking for their money following me around in a tinted black car.That's more like..Umbrella in rainstorm........
"Secure"-Make certain in the future. <<------THAT  is where I need to be (i.e...a routine is now a habit,embedded in me and a lifestyle).Imagine seat belt secure...not a car seat belt..no, like and 16 story ride at Dorney Park seat belt secure..Got the visual?Good.
is this making sense?

 I literally less than 10 min ago ..printed out my bank statement and went to dissecting my funds.Highlighting the nonsense and the necessary...and guess what came head to head ??Nonsense!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhh.
Well I'm done with lying to myself and feeling like if I do good one month and have excess income,I've graduated into the better bank habit league.I can't start and stop.It's scary.
As a new business owner,learning that my gifts will one day be my MAIN source of income and possibly  livelihood UNLESS I MARRY DWIGHT HOWARD-#dontjudgeme I MUST do better.
I wont beat myself up...BUT I must push myself.
I must tell yo that this morning .....I felt schizophrenic moving my legs in and out of the square blocks on the ground as I shuffled back and forth wondering if I should stop for coffee at (fill in the blank)...I must've look REALLY confused.
But I took a deep breath and walked straight to work.

Anyway I saw this on this BLOG and I became encouraged.

I CAN do better...and since can means physically able...I WILL do better.

Keoka

Opurtune appt or just a Lesson...?

Soooooo the most random things happen to me...

So...I'm VERY dismissive with men...lol ....Like even if Im attracted to you,I'll totally be like....T-T-Y-L..in your face,this coming from somone who doesnt want to be single forever.

Ok so on my usual Starbukcs run a man tries to talk to me..Nice looking,smooth skin...whatever.He's being very inquisitive ..which btw in NYC is sometimes very stalker ish..lol I let him know he was asking A Lot of questions.I told  him my name was KO KO and i had a bf..(none is true).He said he was Nigerian and was in an R&B group.I said ok :: side eye:: and continued on to order my Caramel Brule latte He asks for my number.I said NO..with a smile.We made a lil small talk,my friend comes in and..HE disappears..SO i google his group when I got back tot he office.

UM....can we say Super star?Dudes a millionaire he and his twin brother have a successful singing group.Platinum ,BET Award winning..and any other accolade you could think of  to rub my face in humble pie,lol.

I kicked myself for awhile because either way I was dishonest and very stand offish(of which my co worker says may be an indwelling issue since there was a similar subject on the most recent Oprah).But anyway.

I turned into the stalker monster and looked up all of the albums ,pretty cool group.Too bad he was so busy getting my info that he didn't tell me his name.So I have no idea which twin it was.He had on a  hat so it could be either one.lol.MY LIFE.All of this after my mentor(who's Nigerian as well) clearly told me(in his voice like God way)..stop being so picky,so off set.

So ladies...take it from me,whether an international R&B singer or the garbage man....dont be so hard ,so guarded,not every man is that one man that you have to shoo away.Be safe but not snobby.Be wise.

I could have just been meant to encourage him,not marry him...lol

Prayer :

"God....lol (who says Lol in prayer?) 

From now on I know better,I knew better last time,but this time I know BETTER.So whether it be him or someone else,I must learn to be honest and just..Let not another opportunity pass by,millionaire or pauper.Amen"

Learn from Me..."Ko Ko"

SMH!

Sunny Side/Elmhurst Experience..

WONDERfull!!!
lol
Fair-$50
Earring supplies :I'd have to kill you if I told you
Brownies/Indo Food/Thai Food:$50

Lugging a table and Ikea bag with Ermy from Elmhurst to SunnySide Queens using Public Transportation,getting lost,having lil kids steal my candies instead of buying earrings,eating my next door neighbors at the Fairs Brownies,Non wind-prood display flying down 15+ times....all to have sold 1 pair to a senior citizen ,and slumber party with Lulu Stellar= PRICELESS!!!let's do it again!!!!!!!!
:-)

God is good....life is Venti!
:-)

SOME AFTERNOON.....GIRLIE-NESS!

God, you put lovely things of the earth in a creation  smoothie and out came SCOTTIE REYNOLDS....
LOL
NCAA Villanova collge champ...this boy is OH-mazing...His face amongst other great talents too...lol
By the way I tend to equate my love for sports only by the faces I recognize or stumble upon....(EYE CANDY)..How I stumbled upon this...I have NO clue..lol
I think he's a cutie...His story is quite moving as well.Orphaned at and early age and raised by another family,this young man is an over comer ( yea im trying to cover up the slight shallowness,by giving you the bio stats I so lurk-like looked up)

"God please protect him from the groupies...."

The nerve of me saying a prayer after this...lol

LOL!! AT MY RANDOMNESS.....THIS BOY IS ONLY 22 YRS OLD...
Well thats enough of that!MOVING ON....